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Back to square 1.2.Prepping for PG medical entrances.Funny innit?How life comes to a full circle somehow.
Back in 2009,I was this slightly naive teenager who started this blog at the spur of the moment .I penned down some uncomfortable truth(s) about the nature of competitive examinations and how it affects somebody.
To tell you the truth,I did not have and still do not have as bad a time cramming for these exams as I did back in 2009 as a pre-med.
For one I am marginally more matured and a bit more opinionated than I was.I have learnt not to give in .
I have the confidence of my MBBS degree and oh! I do have rank AIR 42,051 .Which is by no stretch of imagination a good rank but a rank albeit when many folks did not qualify.
Which brings to my uncomfortable overambitiousness.If somebody told me back in 2009 that I was to get a PG seat in a good albeit non-clinical branch like Microbio or Physio or Commed ,I woulda jumped at the oppurtunity.
And here I am ,resolutely refusing to give in that is something lesser.
People around me ,females yeah are getting married and leading comfortable lives.The more meritorious ones are still at the game or have bagged a seat.
For my part I am leading a very physically comfortable life too but thats just it.I am a voluntary prisoner in my own room.
The thing is I wont submit to the same fate that I worked so hard to escape 8 years ago.
I am probably made of harder stuff than I thought I was.
Or I am vain.
And stupid.
Or don't know that I had a chance to escape a mentally peaceful life too.
Maybe I dont want mental peace.
Sometimes I dont understand who eludes who?Me escaping peace or peace giving me a no-show.
Back to square 1.2.Prepping for PG medical entrances.Funny innit?How life comes to a full circle somehow.
Back in 2009,I was this slightly naive teenager who started this blog at the spur of the moment .I penned down some uncomfortable truth(s) about the nature of competitive examinations and how it affects somebody.
To tell you the truth,I did not have and still do not have as bad a time cramming for these exams as I did back in 2009 as a pre-med.
For one I am marginally more matured and a bit more opinionated than I was.I have learnt not to give in .
I have the confidence of my MBBS degree and oh! I do have rank AIR 42,051 .Which is by no stretch of imagination a good rank but a rank albeit when many folks did not qualify.
Which brings to my uncomfortable overambitiousness.If somebody told me back in 2009 that I was to get a PG seat in a good albeit non-clinical branch like Microbio or Physio or Commed ,I woulda jumped at the oppurtunity.
And here I am ,resolutely refusing to give in that is something lesser.
People around me ,females yeah are getting married and leading comfortable lives.The more meritorious ones are still at the game or have bagged a seat.
For my part I am leading a very physically comfortable life too but thats just it.I am a voluntary prisoner in my own room.
The thing is I wont submit to the same fate that I worked so hard to escape 8 years ago.
I am probably made of harder stuff than I thought I was.
Or I am vain.
And stupid.
Or don't know that I had a chance to escape a mentally peaceful life too.
Maybe I dont want mental peace.
Sometimes I dont understand who eludes who?Me escaping peace or peace giving me a no-show.
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