Disillusioned....but not dismantled

Dear GenNow,why the fuck do i bother writing so much when no one reads anyways?lets c..i ..err...lemme start anyways
So,its been roughly 8 months since i wrote...friggin' 8 months...i cant blive time flew by so helluva fast!!2 years when i did started this crap blog about selfpity ,i was just another disullsioned nutcase....a year later i was marginally more sensible...though still a nutcase...at the turn of the year..i m a slutcase ...i have had my second break -up with a guy who really mattered to me until he proved to me he was a studcase!
I am not exactly sure how the world defines a slut...i am not even sure whether the oxford dictionary defines it ...i m sure it is defined according to varying levels of distaste men or women feel towards othef women....maybe when they run out of "bitches" and "whores"...n profanities alike!
so congratulate me GenNow,i have come a long long way....from a shy young nerdy pre-med to a slutty med school freshman ("woman"!)i am not sure which one you would prefer and i m not really sure i care...but talking about definitions....i guess the definition of how u define a person depends upon your creativity and imagination and situation and other climatic factors (and cultural).
So,my ex-studman ,Sen("In-Sen")defined me a "slutty kid wid no compassion ,no powers of sacrifice n compromise(whoa,wait here i m not a Jawan whos expected to sacrifice"),fat lump"
i wonder how he calls me a fat lump if i m slutty,i mean fat ,unattractive women aint exactly called slutty ...they are called losers.And here i choose to define a slut:
"Slut;adjective,verb:no usage know(its probably fucking ;)):a bold,revolutionary ,feminist,pathbreaking woman,who is ousted from the egomaniacal male community as a troublemaker":D
Notice:the male equivalent of a slut is a stud!a horse!

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