Smitten...totally...
Dear GenNow,
my past 4 blogs had been mostly about pitiful stories of self pity and malice against the world in general.At some point of time i did not even realise that i had expressed unreasonable vehemence at the turn of events which perhaps would have occurred sooner or later.I was 18 when i updated my 1st blog ever and am 20 years now.2 years,not very remarkably long though life has slowly metamorphosed into a lot of things....true,the kids are still kids ,the old are still older and i admit to having lost 2-3 distant relatives to Mr. Death (1 suicidal!!) i cannot grasp that 2 years have actually passed by ,rather 3 since i passed school..i dropped a year,i had 2 break ups and i wrote out my perversions and frustrations on net to basically nobody ..but the transition i have undergone the past 5 months is nuthing short of a revolution that my mind has carried out against me.A revolution to perhaps purge me of my past(not very gory :) ) ,a revolution to perhaps sweeten up my bitter ,disulliosioned heart and a revolution to do something constructive out of life.I once wrote in this same blog how innocence often attributes success to other people ,i confess again ,i do retain some of that innocence i thought i had lost (hold a sec,its anindya :0 ) there i am breathing again ...today i do not attribute success necessarily to any human being..but i do attribute that gaining of the lost humanity and goodness for which i was so reputed to a human being whose name even 6 months back spelled nothing to mE.But now it does...it spells...innocence,love,affection,concern,kindness,intelligence and most importantly a faith so strong that it surpasses my bond with even my own heart.
That human being is a sweet,innocent,very talkative 21 year old boy named Anindya Ganguly.If there is anything such as character rehabilitation then let me tell you this boy is the once who took it upon himself to put me through that.There exists something called faith ,and i had lost all from the human kind until he gave it back to me.In all probability he would never read this blog because i dont want to hurt him by earlier vehement ,accusing blogs but if he ever does,please tell him GenNow,that he not come into my life ,i would have soon somehow started a well known reputation as a slut..that he means more than God himself to me and that if he ever leaves me due to some reason or the other ..even for another woman ..i would not accuse him ...there would be no question of forgiveness..for i would never ever blame him for anything.
Faith is once,acceptance is another abstract thing.But yet means so much.The good,the clean do not need acceptance for their own self has accepted them,the leper,the unclean do need it.I had but become a leper unto my own eyes for sometime ...but he cleansed me free of my past by introducing faith into my life.
my past 4 blogs had been mostly about pitiful stories of self pity and malice against the world in general.At some point of time i did not even realise that i had expressed unreasonable vehemence at the turn of events which perhaps would have occurred sooner or later.I was 18 when i updated my 1st blog ever and am 20 years now.2 years,not very remarkably long though life has slowly metamorphosed into a lot of things....true,the kids are still kids ,the old are still older and i admit to having lost 2-3 distant relatives to Mr. Death (1 suicidal!!) i cannot grasp that 2 years have actually passed by ,rather 3 since i passed school..i dropped a year,i had 2 break ups and i wrote out my perversions and frustrations on net to basically nobody ..but the transition i have undergone the past 5 months is nuthing short of a revolution that my mind has carried out against me.A revolution to perhaps purge me of my past(not very gory :) ) ,a revolution to perhaps sweeten up my bitter ,disulliosioned heart and a revolution to do something constructive out of life.I once wrote in this same blog how innocence often attributes success to other people ,i confess again ,i do retain some of that innocence i thought i had lost (hold a sec,its anindya :0 ) there i am breathing again ...today i do not attribute success necessarily to any human being..but i do attribute that gaining of the lost humanity and goodness for which i was so reputed to a human being whose name even 6 months back spelled nothing to mE.But now it does...it spells...innocence,love,affection,concern,kindness,intelligence and most importantly a faith so strong that it surpasses my bond with even my own heart.
That human being is a sweet,innocent,very talkative 21 year old boy named Anindya Ganguly.If there is anything such as character rehabilitation then let me tell you this boy is the once who took it upon himself to put me through that.There exists something called faith ,and i had lost all from the human kind until he gave it back to me.In all probability he would never read this blog because i dont want to hurt him by earlier vehement ,accusing blogs but if he ever does,please tell him GenNow,that he not come into my life ,i would have soon somehow started a well known reputation as a slut..that he means more than God himself to me and that if he ever leaves me due to some reason or the other ..even for another woman ..i would not accuse him ...there would be no question of forgiveness..for i would never ever blame him for anything.
Faith is once,acceptance is another abstract thing.But yet means so much.The good,the clean do not need acceptance for their own self has accepted them,the leper,the unclean do need it.I had but become a leper unto my own eyes for sometime ...but he cleansed me free of my past by introducing faith into my life.
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