Ugly

I wish all things in life were easy.Such as living with one boob instead of 2.Such as swallowing the things people say to you.
Now that I look back,I find it easier to forgive her.Hse was only 21 and victim of  a collective and tiresome mentality,a result of the million year worth of aesthetic beauty that the world is so obsessive about.
I wasn't born uni-boob.It was the result of a surgery for a dangerously growing haemangioma that had to be done with.
I grew up thinking it was funny and that I was very special .Then I came to medical school and in my 3rd year people,all females decided to end that and make me take down my high chair of comfort .
So they bombarded me with awkward questions.
"Is your bra askew?"
"Are you wearing that bra properly?"
And the more intelligent and direct
"Did u have breast cancer? "
Till date ,I haven't been able to decide what I am supposed to feel .
Awkward/angry/defensive/aroused. LOL.
Questions that bogged me down .And always will.

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